Where & how can I get the answer?

My friend gave me an assignment:


How huge is your crush to him?


Well, being a woman at this age, of course there were times I'd be fantasizing having cute & sweet family with him, both of us preparing dinner, do laundry together etc etc. But, is that a strong indicator for me to proceed with the next scary step?

At times, I did feel like he was feeling what I feel but.. how true is that? How do I confirm that? Reality check - there is a Berlin wall between us, in fact maybe it is a Gaza strip wall. I'm muslim, he is non-muslim. Just . how..