Everyone’s getting married.

I’m faking the fact that it didn’t bother me at all. Of course i’m worried. I’m 23 and i don’t have anyone special. Sounds pathetic but i’m okay with it since i believe that there is no such relationship approved in Islam. The man & woman relationship before marriage, i mean. And i never gave effort in finding one too. Every time there was a man approaching, i’d slowly pulling myself away from him. I just...didn’t feel comfortable. That’s it.

Or maybe because i’m waiting for someone. That would be one of the reasons too.

Silly me. Waiting for nothing. I never told him that i like him, or even worst, i never showed any hints that i seriously like him. Like seriously, how on earth he would know, right?

Sometimes i wonder, how did two people started to involve in this love-related thingy? Is it true that we have to be gedik to get a partner? Bollock. Siapa nak jadi gedik? Aku tak nakk!

So, how?

For the time being, i just calming myself with these words;

‘jodoh pertemuan di tangan Allah’

aaaand i’m planning to further my studies in 2011! Yehhey! which will make me only available for this thing after 2012. Erk? in 3 years time. Erk? Then, i’ll build mylife, slowly. Job, money, parents ... & marriage.


too many things to do.